There is definitely something wrong with me

This morning I skipped my run and just did regular strength training. It’s me getting back into it so I wasn’t expecting too much. I also have this weird strain in my chest. Even with light weights on the bar it feels like 1 strand of muscle is being pulled from the top of my left pec. I guess for now, I’ll just make sure I’m properly stretched and take it easy on the weight used.

That’s not the problem though. The problem is that I want to run. The problem with that is I have always hated running. Hated. It’s definitely throwing my brain for a loop. Stupid brain. Stupid legs.

Weight: 190.4 lbs.
21.5 % Body Fat
BMI: 28.9

Confirmed: I can’t do this shit on my own

I can’t tell you how many times I’ve started and restarted P90X. Something always comes up or I just realize I really don’t give a shit and I bail.

I know for a fact that I can get results from P90X, but an hour is really pushing it for me on my own. I was able to go through P90X3 for a while. They are a bit easier to digest since they average about 30 minutes, but I didn’t feel like I was getting any results. And to be honest, my motivation has just been shit.

I did pick up a used squat rack and a bunch of free weights a couple of weeks ago. I miss weights. I miss that ache. Weights, I feel I can stick with. I’ve been lifting the past couple of weeks. There’s just that feeling that hits 2 days after lifting. It hurts, but damn, it’s a good hurt.

The weights are just easier for me to stick with. I definitely have to do something. My don’t give a shit attitude has resulted in my heaviest weight except for when I was on steroids when I was younger.

My goals are to lift consistently on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays with cardio on Tuesdays, Thursdays, and possible Saturday.

Go me!

Edit: Holy shit. I just noticed this post is just over 2 years to the last post. 17 lbs. heavier. Fuck this shit.

Weight: 197.8 lbs.
22.1 % Body Fat
BMI: 30.1
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